Why is it for every good thing that happens to me in a day or week or month, my brain covers it up with a million stupid things that are far more detailed?
I can remember every eye flicker and movement and word uttered by my instructor and scene partner when I failed miserably in class and was called out on my shit and didn't even have the decency to learn from my mistake and the disappointment on everyone's face and the beads of sweat coming down my face and that stupid blue dress that I was wearing with my stupid pigtails, but I can't really recall that time that actor that I really respect gave me a compliment.
I can savor that ice cream sundae from Icon Grill with the bowl made of cookie, the mountains of homemade vanilla ice cream, the cone full of hot fudge that they drizzle on top till I say "when", and the orgy of mini m&m's, strawberries and freshly whipped cream and relive every single bite, but can only vaguely remember a cool moment that occurred when I was onstage with other people?
Sometimes my brain sucks.
But ice cream is awesome.
4 comments:
There are chemical released in your body that make you remember traumatizing events when they occur. It's an evolutionary adaption to keep you alive and to help you avoid pain in the future.
I knew where that sundae was from before I even read your post.
Miss you, Sarah Jane
I want that ice cream. I'm always so happy when I see you've posted something Emjoy. Your brain could never be stupid.
the sunday looks wonderful. I missing serving them. I miss especially the looks of delights when pouring the fudge. Sorry your day at school wasn't what you wanted. There will be another day for your star to shine. To me though and I'm sure the rest of your fans you are always shinning bright.
i'm glad SJ expained that phenomenon so i don't have to blame myself for that same memory system.
...and i'm going to use your picture technique - who wouldn't want to read about THAT picture?!
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